I think I might have had a conversation with God. Now, now, now, don't go rolling your eyes or moving onto another page. I'm not crazy, nor am I going to be all preachy.
But I think the Holy Spirit sent me a message, in the form of an old man walking around the track. But hey, Divinity comes in all shapes and sizes. I wasn't really thinking about religion when I started talking to him, and suddenly there I was, listening to a man in sweat pants tell me about how we need to pray to be born again and how heaven isn't outside of ourselves; it's inside each and everyone of us.
And then he said something that completely floored me. He said, "No one can judge you. You just keep on loving people and doing what you do. Only God can judge. All the rest don't matter." He couldn't have known that is a constant worry of mine, nor could he have realized how much those words effected me, set me free.
It could very well be some sort of coincidence, but I prefer to think it was some kind of Wonderful.
God bless you, Jeff. You've helped me more than you know.
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Monday, October 10, 2011
A Little Something About Me
Sometimes, especially when school is involved, I get extremely stressed out. Sometimes I get nauseous, and other times I am crawling underneath a desk bawling my eyes out. In both cases, I tell myself that there is no reason to get so stressed, that I am doing fine, that everything is going to be okay, but it doesn't help. Usually my mental pep talks exacerbate the problem, as I begin to berate myself for being so weak!
Thankfully, I am blessed with an incredibly family, a stalwart best friend, and a wonderful dear sir. Unfortunately, my dear sir cannot always be there, nor can my best friend, but they offer wonderful words of comfort and love that help me infinitely more than my own can. And then, of course, there is my family. Since I live with my family, they are there not only to offer words, but to give hugs.
Hugs are magical. I am a firm believer in the power of hugs. Some of the worst days I have ever had were those without hugs. There have been numerous times when I have forced myself to not feel sad, to push it away and hid it deep within; however, whenever I do that, my mother inevitably gives me a hug, and it immediately rises to the surface and gets cleaned way. I don't mind that I'm not very good at hiding my feelings from others. I think it's a healthier way to live.
Anyway, there's a little something about me: I'm a physical person. I feel and express emotion best through physical contact. So if you ever meet me and start to tell me all the troubles in your life, don't get freaked out when I squeeze your arm or give you a hug. I'm just letting you know that I care.
Thankfully, I am blessed with an incredibly family, a stalwart best friend, and a wonderful dear sir. Unfortunately, my dear sir cannot always be there, nor can my best friend, but they offer wonderful words of comfort and love that help me infinitely more than my own can. And then, of course, there is my family. Since I live with my family, they are there not only to offer words, but to give hugs.
Hugs are magical. I am a firm believer in the power of hugs. Some of the worst days I have ever had were those without hugs. There have been numerous times when I have forced myself to not feel sad, to push it away and hid it deep within; however, whenever I do that, my mother inevitably gives me a hug, and it immediately rises to the surface and gets cleaned way. I don't mind that I'm not very good at hiding my feelings from others. I think it's a healthier way to live.
Anyway, there's a little something about me: I'm a physical person. I feel and express emotion best through physical contact. So if you ever meet me and start to tell me all the troubles in your life, don't get freaked out when I squeeze your arm or give you a hug. I'm just letting you know that I care.
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